The Bell Jar 45-100

So the main character Esther is living in New York City right now because of the scholarship she won. While there she meets Doreen and Betty two girls who end up being her close friends, however Doreen is kind of a party animal and Betty is a preppy good girl if you want to give them stereotypes. I guess Esther is dating a boy named Buddy. Buddy and Esther's relationship is a little strange because of her odd beliefs that shes set up when it comes to a relationship. At one point she even admits that getting married is not her thing, but Buddy stays fascinated with her. So through out the book Esther starts to form this belief involving her be neurotic because of something Buddy says. After a couple of chapters she describes everything as dull, even food taste gray to her. She ends up fleeing New York City to go back home where she finds out she did not make that writing course she wanted to take. This bad news ends up messing her up even more, so her mom sets up a appointment for her with a special Doctor. He concludes that the only way Esther will get better is by shock treatments, but these treatments do little good and may have even worsened her issues. She starts to think about ways to die and she even tries to kill herself with her moms bathroom rope. It's very depressing in this book at the moment. I don't know if I can keep on reading.

This book is really sad and the character is so rational about the whole situation as if killing herself is the most logical option. Reading this book at the moment is a struggle.